February 10, 2016
Cookies! Shaped like hearts! Valentine’s Day! Much pep!
I don’t get why people hate Valentine’s Day so much. Me personally, I love a holiday devoted exclusively to love. Yes, I think that love should be woven into each and every day in as many ways as you possibly can, but in my opinion, it’s lovely that there’s a holiday dedicated to telling other people how much you care about them. We so often walk through the world with our hearts closed, fearing that others will judge us for how we feel or sifting through our own business so intensely that we isolate ourselves…so it’s nice to have a little push on the calendar reminding us to show some compassion.
I think the real problem lies in all of the unnecessary pressure we place upon ONE day. You know the drill: you’ve gotta express romantic love, and for some reason romantic love means buying flowers and going out for overpriced dinners and physically manifesting that your love is real, somehow. Are flowers and dinners nice? Yes, of course, but that is in no way how you have to express your care for another person.
One of my favorite things about humanity as a whole is the plethora of ways in which we can all love each other. We frequently get frustrated that someone else isn’t loving us in the way we’d like, which I think is often more of misunderstanding. Instead of getting caught in the quibbles (this is my new favorite phrase, other than fartbag, which is a different story), I believe that it’s far more beneficial to meet those we love halfway, recognizing that while some of us are big on public, dramatic expressions of passion, others are more subdued and prefer little notes and quiet moments. Neither form of love is “wrong”…they’re just different for different people, and the intention behind both can be equally as strong.
Always love others for where they are, unconditionally. Empathize and learn how to understand. That’s my philosophy. Also hugs. Hugs are my favorite thing in the universe. Always hugs.
At the same time, though, you don’t need to be in a romantic relationship in order to be loved and feel love. First of all, platonic love is freaking awesome, and it isn’t expressed enough, in my opinion. Write passionate love letters to your friends. Get them flowers and presents. Give them kisses and cuddles. I mean, if that’s not your style, I get it, but why on earth is it a “bad” thing to show your friends how much you love them?! Gosh, society.
But as I fervently expressed in my last post, you don’t even need another person to feel love at a particular moment in time: you, yes you, can love yourself. And that’s not selfish: it’s freaking awesome! It’s something I am proud to practice, and I encourage you to practice it, too.
Last Saturday night, I wanted to get out of the house, but all of my friends were either in a theater production or attending a dance. So I decided, hey, why not take myself on a date?
So, I burned myself a cheesy mix CD featuring my favorite love songs, and drove the half an hour to my favorite pizza place. I asked for a table for one, opened up a book of poetry I brought, and just sat in the middle of a crowded restaurant, by myself yet perfectly content reading Walt Whitman and chowing down on those delicious layers of cheese and tomato sauce. Afterwards, I went to Carvel and got my favorite guilty pleasure: a vanilla and chocolate swirl soft serve cone, dipped in chocolate and covered with rainbow sprinkles. As I sat in my car, making a complete mess of myself while singing along to Ed Sheeran, I thought about how much fun I was having just being me, doing my own thing.
Love others with all of your heart and all you’ve got, but darnit, love yourself, too. Dating someone is fun, but dating yourself is fun, too.
OKAY PHILOSOPHICAL TALK IS OVER FOR THE DAY. It’s time for cookies. FREAKING AMAZING COOKIES!!!
My mom’s favorite cookies are Linzer Hearts, so these go out to her especially. They’re really lovely: raspberry jam sandwiched between two soft, slightly crumbly, slightly crunchy, slightly chewy cookies, dusted in a little powdered sugar. Yes, they’re a decent amount of work with all of the rolling and such, but they are SO worth it!
Make these for someone you love this Valentine’s Day. Or make these for yourself, because you love yourself too, right?! 🙂
Prep Time 2 hr
Cooking Time 10 min
Total Time 2 hr 10 min
Yield 12-15 sandwiched cookies
FOR THE COOKIES:
1 cup of oat flour
1 cup of whole-wheat pastry flour
1 cup of blanched almond flour
1/2 teaspoon of salt
1 cup of organic palm shortening OR softened refined coconut oil
1 cup of organic cane sugar
1 tablespoon of arrowroot powder + 2 tablespoons of water
1 teaspoon of vanilla extract
1 teaspoon of almond extract
FOR THE RASPBERRY JAM:
1 12-ounce bag of frozen raspberries, slightly thawed
1/2 cup-2/3 cup of organic cane sugar (depending on how sweet you want it)
1 tablespoon of arrowroot powder + 3 tablespoons of water
Pinch of salt
Squeeze of lemon juice
FOR THE COOKIES:
In a medium bowl, sift together the three flours and salt. Whisk to combine and set aside.
In the bowl of a stand mixer, beat together the palm shortening with the sugar on medium speed until light and fluffy, about 3 minutes. Turn off the mixer, scrape down the sides, and add the arrowroot/water mixture and extracts. Turn the mixer on low, then crank up to high and beat until everything is well-combined, about two minutes longer.
Add half of the dry ingredients to the wet ingredients and mix on low just until no clumps remain. Add the remaining half of the dry ingredients and do the same. The dough should hold together pretty well in a firm-ish ball. If it feels too wet, add another tablespoon or two of whole wheat pastry flour.
Squish the dough together and wrap it tightly in plastic wrap. Pop in the fridge for at least two hours or overnight to firm up.
When you’re ready to bake, preheat the oven to 350 degrees and line two baking sheets with parchment paper.
Liberally flour a clean rolling pin and counter space with flour. Cut the dough ball in half and roll one of the two halves out until it’s about 1/4-inch thick (approximately). (Put the other half in the fridge while you roll out the first one.) Using a heart-shaped cookie cutter lightly dipped in flour, cut out as many cookies as you can. Then, using a small circular cookie cutter (I actually used an apple corer), cut out a little circle in half of the cookies you cut. This will be so you can see the jam in the center once the cookies are assembled!
Place the cut cookies on the prepared baking sheets, squish the scraps together, and repeat the same process described above with the dough scraps and other half of dough.
Bake the cookies in the preheated oven for 9 minutes, or until just beginning to brown around the edges. Let cool on the baking sheets for 10 minutes, then transfer to cooling racks to arrive at room temperature.
FOR THE FILLING:
Option one: you are a lazy potato and use store-bought raspberries preserves. I only judge you slightly.
Option two: YOU DO IT THE ABBY WAY.
Put the frozen raspberries in a saucepan with the sugar, pinch of salt, and lemon juice. Heat over medium and, using a spoon, smash those raspberries like they were somebody you detest. Once the raspberries have mostly broken down and released their juices, whisk together the arrowroot and water and drizzle the mixture into the raspberries. Whisk it quickly and reduce the heat down to low. Stir constantly until thickened, about 3-4 minutes.
Remove from the heat and put in the fridge to cool completely.
Take a cookie that DOES NOT have a circle cut out in the center and spread about a tablespoon or two of the raspberry filling all over. Carefully place a cookie that DOES have a circle cut out in the center on top. Repeat until you have no cookies left.
Put the cookies in an tight container and let them hang out overnight, or at least 3-4 hours if you’re impatient. Eat within 3 days.
(Thanks for listening to me chatter. I’ve been writing a lot, lately. 🙂 )
Much love to all! <3
Tags: Allergy friendly, baking, cookies, dairy-free, delicious, dessert, healthy, raspberries, vegan
February 1, 2016
TREAT. YO. SELF. Word. Words. Important words.
Okay, first of all, disclaimer: I am horrible at watching things. Once in a while I can do TED Talks or a Crash Course Astronomy video, but if I have to attentively look at something for more than five minutes, I get bored and automatically zone out, then go do something else if I’m at home. Binge-watching for me is maybe getting through two episodes of a show on Netflix. Yikes.
BUT. One of the only shows I absolutely adore is Parks and Rec, specifically because Leslie Knope is my spirit animal. (I too make intricate scrapbooks and mix CDs for my best friends. 🙂 ) Anyway, the reason I bring this up is because in one episode, Donna and Tom describe the idea of “Treat Yo Self Day,” where you get yourself massages and mimosas and fine leather goods because YOU DESERVE IT. Ben, who can be a notorious stick-in-the-mud, does not believe in the idea of “Treat Yo Self Day,” but is promptly dragged along in the shenanigans and eventually succumbs, buying himself a head-to-toe Batman suit.
Am I suggesting that you go and buy yourself a batman suit? No, I mean, unless if you really want to. But what I am getting at here is that you, yes YOU, need to Treat. Yo. Self., and you need to Treat. Yo. Self. to self-love.
In yoga recently, we’ve been talking a lot about compassion towards oneself, because it’s a hard thing to wrestle with. It’s a very human dilemma: how do we balance our individual happiness with that of others so we can love to the fullest while still maintaining our own sanity? That perfect midpoint is difficult to both find and sustain for an extended period of time, so we so often swing towards one extreme or the other. While there are people that devote so much time and energy to themselves exclusively that narcissism develops, I want to focus here on the other side of the spectrum: the people that devote so much time and energy to others that their own needs are lost in the kerfuffle.
Human beings are innately social creatures (even if you’re an introvert like me, cough). We want people to like us, we want to form meaningful connections with others, we want to be understood and held in this life. There’s nothing wrong with any of these desires: they’re perfectly healthy, normal feelings to crave. We feel that the more we help others, the more they will like us and give us the affection we so value and require. But when we are too focused on listening, understanding, and solving the problems of others all of the time, we forget ourselves, and this can be absolutely unhealthy.
A lot of my friends have been struggling with this lately, and what I want to tell them, and you, whoever you are, is that you are a beautiful person worthy of being treasured for everything you are, and while others will bestow affection onto you, you have the power to give yourself the love you so desire. Really. I promise.
It’s easy to get completely lost in the emotions of other people, because oftentimes, we really don’t like what we see in ourselves. Instead of confronting those feelings of internal insecurity head-on, we push them aside and divert our energy into keeping busy with activities or trying to help other people, to make them feel the happiness we are missing within ourselves.
And it’s a lovely thing, really, to be able to give someone else the hand he or she needs; in my opinion, there is nothing more gorgeous than genuine human connection. But at the same time, when you try to save others to avoid healing yourself, often in the hopes that someone will “fix” you in the process or in return, you’re not forming the best possible bonds with the people in your world.
Think of it this way: you and your soul and your body are a boat that bobs along with the ebb and flow of life. You have the capacity to carry others with you, too, and when you’re strong and healthy, you can bring those you love to shore or at least point them in a direction they need to go. And that’s AMAZING. But when you have holes in your hull, when your masts are worn out, when you really need to replace some of the boards, you can’t carry others with the same kind of security. Sure, you might be okay when the waters are clear and calm, but when a storm hits, those holes in your ship are going to be felt, and those on board are going to have a hard time hanging on. And you do not want that for those you love so dearly.
I think it is so important that we recognize the importance of keeping ourselves healthy in every way possible, because when you’re healthy, you really have the space and energy to help others become healthy. By health, yes, I mean physically nourishing yourself by eating well and sleeping and finding movement you enjoy, but I also mean spiritually and mentally nourishing yourself, too. And that’s a lot trickier than drinking a smoothie or going for a run.
We are stuck with ourselves for the rest of our lives. Whether that’s a fortunate or unfortunate circumstance is up to you: it’s a choice YOU have the power to make. I would strongly encourage you to love yourself, because even if I haven’t met you, I know that you are a wonderful person who has a secret talent, lofty dream, and a sincere smile that can brighten another person’s day. (And if I have met you, please feel free to reach out to me at any point and I will be happy to tell you what I love about you!)
It seems silly, but loving yourself can be hard. We’ve all been there, don’t deny it. But if you’re willing to put in energy, to sift through some figurative nasty shit, to really get to know yourself, you can do it. And if you love yourself first, you will be able to love other people in extraordinary ways. And to me, there’s nothing more amazing than having a life filled with love, love for both YOURSELF and those around you.
Well, how do you get there? It’s not easy, and it’s different for everyone, but I’m going to try my best to explain. Regardless, I want to encourage you to try, because as I’ve said, I’m 10000000% sure that you are a person worthy of being loved by both yourself and others.
I think the first thing you have to do is to get comfortable with yourself and your flaws. In our society, we fixate so much time and effort towards erasing our imperfections, which I think is misguided. Instead, I believe we should learn how to embrace what we don’t like and figure out how to work with it: a cooperative relationship, not a combative one. You’re never going to be perfect. No one is. So why not choose to be okay with this person you’ve been given, with this person you’re growing into? Recognize your good qualities, because they’re there, and it doesn’t make you a bad person for acknowledging them. YOU ARE AWESOME. Live it. Breathe it. Be it.
If there are things you don’t like about yourself (which I’m sure there are), look into yourself and sort out why you don’t like them. If you don’t like how you look, read this. The gist of it is that there is no such thing as a perfect body, so aim to feel your best instead of look a certain way. Also, “imperfections” to you can be incredibly cute to someone else. Trust me.
If you don’t like a certain thing you do, be it biting your nails or getting anxious about tests or delivering unconscious criticism, recognize that it’s there and ask yourself why, and how you can get to a place where it’s better. Have conversations with yourself. Chat with others. It may not come right away, but if you look, you can definitely find a way to sort it out. You’ve got this.
What comes next is finding where you can be this comfortable self. What makes you feel happy and good? You deserve to be doing those things, so long as they are positive towards all human beings.
For me, that’s where yoga really comes in. My friends all know this: if I don’t respond to your message right away, it’s because I’m busy chanting “om” with my kula or daring myself to try a crazy new backbend. When I unroll my mat on the heated floor (bless that heated floor), I know it’s me time. My practice is dealing with me and my feelings and my body and no one else’s. Yes, I am surrounded by other people that I care dearly about, but we’re all there for the same reason: to have time with ourselves in a safe, loving place.
Yoga is not a selfish practice; it’s quite the opposite. Yoga is all about cultivating peace and love with yourself first and foremost so you may sprinkle good energy into your community and onto your loved ones, and that’s not selfish in the slightest. You’ve gotta take care of yourself first, because taking care of yourself enables you to be at your most grounded and enlightened when dealing with the chaos of others and the universe in general. That’s why we keep coming back: to return to the present moment in ourselves so we may be present with others.
It doesn’t have to be yoga. Cooking and drawing and reading and writing all have the same effect, for me at least. You can take walks in nature. You can rollerskate. You can play the ukulele. You can crochet. You can sing, or dance, or act. You can paint yourself purple. You can build a doghouse. You can compose passionate sonnets. Whatever it is, find time for yourself every day where you can be yourself in doing something that you love. And do it for YOU and NO ONE ELSE. You can do that. Really.
I think the final step is surrounding yourself with people who help you sustain balance in your life. I believe that it is important to radiate love and kindness towards all human beings, regardless of how they treat you or what your opinions about them may be. We all have feelings, we all have hearts, we all have giggles and fears and crushes, and we must acknowledge and honor that wonderful fact about humanity. But how much love you give to others is subjective, because your love is beautiful, and it shouldn’t be put just anywhere.
If someone mistreats your love, you should invest your love elsewhere. Yes, we all go through difficult times in our lives, and in those moments, people may not be able to appreciate or reciprocate love because they’re working out their own crap. And it’s kind and special and lovely when you can be there unconditionally for someone you love during those times, because no one should ever feel alone in anything. But when someone time and time again is draining your love from you, it’s not selfish to put forth less love towards that relationship, be it platonic or romantic. Take care of yourself and transfer love to someone you really care about, someone who could really use it and appreciate it.
You have permission to take a deep breath and let go. It’s okay.
So, I know everybody is big on New Year’s resolutions, but since I actually missed the New Year this year (my best friend and I were too busy chattering away and when we looked up the countdown, it was counting up…oops), I would encourage you to make a Valentine’s Day resolution. (What even, Abby? You are an unusual potato.)
Your Valentine’s Day resolution is this: this February 14th, love the special people in your life, but LOVE. YOURSELF. And I will say it again…
You are a fantastic person, and you are beautiful and people adore you. So give yourself that respect and care you deserve, because you ain’t gonna be able to treat others right if you don’t treat yo self first.
Remind yourself of this every day and night: you love and you are loved. <3
xoxo <3 <3,
Tags: my life, TREAT YO SELF
January 27, 2016
I MADE IT. I’M A SECOND SEMESTER SENIOR.
Basically, I have no idea what just happened to me? One minute I was walking through the door with my space cats backpack in August, and the next I was dragging myself out of school while wearing a Pusheen the Cat onesie and bright yellow sunglasses in January? Confusion?
A heavy snowstorm fell on my town the night after the last day of first semester, and when I awoke the next morning, the world was still, covered in a blanket of lovely white. I felt so peaceful watching the flakes fall from the sky, knowing that I had reached the stressful apex of my high school career and was about to giggle my face off on the ride down. With the heat cranked up and my fuzzy purple blanket wrapped around my shoulders, I took out a pencil and just…wrote. Wrote about everything I’ve felt, everything that’s taken place, everything I look forward to in the next few months. It was so nice to just breathe a sigh of relief, because the past five months have been insanely, insanely stressful at times.
On Sunday night, I decided to cook up this risotto after yoga class. And while it’s a delicious dish, I’ve come to realize that it’s more than that: RISOTTO IS A METAPHOR FOR MY LIFE. I know you are now groaning because I’m about to go off on a tangent, but BEAR WITH ME PLEASE, my English teacher this year doesn’t let me be creative and I need to let my imagination fly somewhere.
The thing about risotto is that you have to stir it. CONSTANTLY. And it gets annoying at times and your arm starts to hurt and you start yelling at your spoon, but you keep going, because you will ruin that risotto if you stop. And just when you think your risotto is done, you take a bite and even after three additions of liquid, it’s still too al dente. But you keep on keeping on, stirring and tending to that risotto until it’s just perfect. And you eat it and cry because carbs are beautiful, especially on a winter night.
Right now, I’m in the transition: I’m stirring my own personal risotto, and it’s not done yet. I’m getting there, but it’s not ready. I’m still adding things, still adjusting the seasonings, still searching for a balance. I am a very impatient person when it comes to waiting for things, so I get anxious and frustrated and awkward at times, but I just keep going, because I know that a delicious future is ahead of me. And I just gotta breathe and get through it.
But hey, stirring can be fun. I can still sing and dance like a fool. I can still have a conversation with someone sitting across from me and laugh at how adorable that smile is. I can still do a spontaneous yoga pose, still think about the complexities of life, still be myself through all of this stirring. And that’s awesome.
Okay. My risotto metaphor is done now. You may now proceed with your life.
This was one awesome risotto. I mean, sweet potatoes, fried sage, AND white wine?! Sign me up again. It was heavenly. Ugh. Now I’m hungry again.
So, make this risotto (possibly for me, cough, but wait, I can make this for myself hahahaha) and think deep thoughts about life and then just rejoice in delicious warm carbs. Good.
Prep Time 5 min
Cooking Time 50 minutes, ish, I don't know, really
Total Time 1 hour, ish
Yield 4 servings
3 tablespoons of olive oil
8 large sage leaves
1 red onion, chopped
2 large cloves of garlic, minced
1 cup of arborio rice
1 cup of white wine
3 cups (approximately) of vegetable broth
Salt, to taste
A pinch of nutmeg
A pinch of smoked paprika
1 cup of roasted sweet potato puree
3/4 cup of shredded parmesan cheese
In the bottom of a Dutch oven or other large, heavy pot, heat the olive oil over medium heat until glistening. Once hot, add the sage leaves, and fry until they are crispy and beginning to turn brown around the edges, about 2-3 minutes. Transfer the fried sage leaves to paper towels and set aside.
To the sage-infused olive oil in the Dutch oven or heavy pot, add the chopped red onion and saute with a pinch of salt until beginning to soften and turn translucent, about 5 minutes. Add the garlic and saute for 1 minute longer, then pour in the rice. Stir frequently for two minutes, then slowly pour in the white wine.
Bring everything to a bubble, then reduce the heat to low, and cook, stirring continuously, until all of the wine has been dissolved. Once things start to look dry again, slowly pour in a cup of the vegetable broth and keep stirring frequently until the liquid is again absorbed. Keep repeating this process until the risotto is thick, creamy, and the rice is fairly (BUT NOT TOTALLY) soft when you take a bite.
Yes, you have to stir constantly. Use it as an excuse for why you didn’t do your AP Stats homework. And no, I don’t know how approximately long this is going to take, or how much liquid you’re gonna have to add. Risotto is one of those things where you sit back, relax, taste as you go, and you’ll know when it’s done. Trust me.
When you think the risotto is just about done, add the nutmeg, smoked paprika, roasted sweet potato puree, and salt to taste. Stir continuously to slightly thicken the risotto, about 3-4 minutes, then taste and adjust the seasonings as necessary. (Hey buddy, go easy on the nutmeg! It can overpower easily!) When you’re satisfied, stir in the cheese and remove from the heat.
Serve immediately with the fried sage leaves on top. Please pour yourself a glass of wine, because I can’t yet. Thank you.
Until next time, my loves. <3 <3 <3
Tags: Allergy friendly, delicious, dinner, easy, gluten-free, healthy, rice, sweet potatoes, vegetarian, winter
December 28, 2015
Oh yes. It’s the moment you’ve been waiting for.
…THE RELEASE OF THE RECIPE FOR THE INFAMOUS CHOCOLATE CRINKLE COOKIES!!!
(If you know me, you know I am now hysterically laughing
all by myself and will not stop these maniacal giggles for at least another five minutes.)
But these cookies are #goals and #aspirations. What’s with the hashtags? #idk. Have I lost a great amount of self-respect over the course of the past month? #perhaps. 😉
I am so happy that it’s winter break, and that I’m currently sitting on a beach chair and listening to the ocean waves crash against the shore as my fingers pitter-patter away on my laptop’s keyboard. I think I understand why they call twelfth grade senior year: the stress ages you until you need either a cane, Social Security, or both.
But seriously. The past month has been a tired trudge through college decisions, more applications, endless essay-writing, tears, screams of joy, late-night panic attacks over Facebook Messenger, Snapchats with black and white filters and text labeled “crying and no longer trying,” distribution of sympathy brownies, and miserable mornings where I’ve hidden under my favorite English teacher’s desk clutching a pink blankie (true story). The moments of happiness were wonderful beyond compare, but the rest…
Still, I feel incredibly grateful for everything that has happened. Why?!
Well, throughout this anxiety-ridden time, I’ve honestly made more meaningful connections with the people around me than I have this entire school year. You know that High School Musical song “We’re All in This Together?” That’s what the past four weeks have felt like, at least to me. It’s been so…nice to see everyone giving each other hugs and talking openly and candidly with one another. Even though a lot of my friends received not-so-good news, others received fabulous news, and everyone was there for everyone else either way. In my humble opinion, it’s been a truly beautiful thing to witness, and I feel so lucky to have watched it unfold.
I’ve had wonderful, heart-warming conversations with some of the most lovely, kind people I know, both friends and teachers. I’ve gone on some fabulous adventures with my best friends to take my mind off of things. Yes, I’ve had moments of despair, but I’ve also had many moments of contentment, where I’ve been so happy that the universe has given me exactly what I needed after all. And for that, I will smile, because I can give love, I can feel love, and I can choose love.
You know what else was awesome? The ABBY BAKING RAVE 2k15!!!
Every year, I bake my teachers a variety of goodies around the holidays, but this year, I went all-out, because hey, it’s senior year: go big or go home! (That was the catchphrase that was going to be on our homecoming t-shirt, but then the administration nixed it because it’s supposedly a reference to alcohol. Ouch.)
I certainly went big. I started on a Sunday morning at 8:30 A.M., then baked and boxed almost non-stop until 1:30 A.M., pausing only to go to yoga so I could stretch myself out. (I then got up at 5:30 A.M. to do some more baking because I’m dumb/care too much.) I made croissants and pain au chocolat from scratch, linzer heart cookies with homemade raspberry jam, gingerbread cookies that I hand-decorated meticulously (there were 28 gingerbread folk in total!!!), and of course these crinkle cookies, whose kisses I also made myself. It was a tiring twenty four hours, but each element of the holiday treat box came out perfectly. I must say I’m very proud. 🙂
I healthified/veganized this recipe 100% on my own. Basically, I took a glance at a traditional recipe (loaded with copious amounts of butter and processed ingredients), adjusted some ratios, made some swaps, and VOILA, magic happened. They were so chocolaty, tender, and delicious…I wish I had more than the one I saved for myself. 🙁 Oh well, guess I’ll have to make them again!
Now, you can use regular chocolate kisses from the store, but I personally prefer to DIY them, simply because I can use much better quality chocolate and keep dairy out of the equation. It’s quite easy, really: all you need is some of your favorite melted chocolate and a kiss mold, and you’re set to go! People will be very impressed when you tell them you made the kisses from scratch. 🙂
Hugs and kisses from me to you. <3
Prep Time 15 min
Cooking Time 11 min
Total Time 30 min
Yield 18-24 cookies
FOR THE KISSES:
3 ounces of dark chocolate, melted and cooled slightly
3 ounces of white chocolate, melted and cooled slightly (use dairy-free white chocolate to keep it completely vegan)
Chocolate kiss mold
FOR THE COOKIES:
1 1/4 cups of non-hydrogenated palm shortening (I like Spectrum, which is unrefined and organic)
1 1/2 cups of unrefined cane sugar (you can reduce it down to 1 cup, but don’t go any further!), plus more for rolling (not hating)
2 tablespoons of arrowroot powder + 6 tablespoons of water, whisked together in a small bowl
1 tablespoon of vanilla extract
2 cups of whole wheat pastry flour
1 1/4 cups of unsweetened cocoa powder
1 teaspoon of baking soda
1/2 teaspoon of salt
FOR THE KISSES:
Using a little spoon, layer in white chocolate on the bottom of each slot in the mold, then put a little layer of dark chocolate on top. Keep layering a little bit at a time until you’ve reached the top.
Using a toothpick, gently swirl the white and dark chocolate together, scraping up and down the sides of each mold slot to make the pattern visible.
Chill in the freezer until solid, about 30 minutes. Pop out of the molds and store in an airtight container in the freezer until ready to use.
FOR THE COOKIES:
Preheat the oven to 350 degrees. Line two large baking sheets with parchment paper and set aside.
In the bowl of a stand mixer, beat together the palm shortening and sugar on medium speed until light and fluffy, about 2 minutes. Add in the arrowroot/water mixture and vanilla, then beat on medium for another minute or two more.
In a medium bowl, sift together the whole wheat pastry flour, cocoa powder, baking soda, and salt. Add the mixture 1 cup at a time to the wet ingredients, setting the mixer on low to ensure that you don’t have flour going up in your face.
Once all of the dry ingredients have been added, test the batter. If it holds together pretty well in a ball and doesn’t feel too sticky, you’re good! If it feels a bit too wet, add in another 1/4 cup of pastry flour and see where you’re at. If it feels too dry, add a splash or two of soy or almond milk to keep things moist.
Pour a bit of unrefined cane sugar into a bowl. Using a decent-sized ice cream scoop, take a large scoop of cookie dough and roll it into a sphere with your hands. Drop it in the sugar, roll it around to coat completely, and place on the prepared baking sheet. Pat the top three times gently with your hand and repeat with the remaining cookie dough. (I recommend placing nine to twelve dough balls on each sheet.)
Bake the cookies for 11-12 minutes, until they begin to feel firm around the edges. Remove from the oven and promptly kiss each one with a frozen kiss that you prepared. Leave the cookies to hang out at room temperature for 10 minutes, then transfer to the fridge to cool completely so the kisses don’t melt.
Thank you, reader, for listening to me babble about my life. It’s been a wild year and I’ve had a lot to say about it, haha! You are a beautiful human being and I love you, whoever you are! May your 2016 be filled with happiness, laughter, and light. xoxo
Tags: Allergy friendly, baking, chocolate, cookies, dairy-free, delicious, dessert, healthy, nut-free, vegan
December 2, 2015
Aren’t these cupcakes absolutely gorgeous?! I think they were worth waving over a candle for an hour. Yup, I did that. My blowtorch broke, so I used a candle to brown the top. Hey, when you have determination, you can do anything.
Sigh. I could totally go for a glass of determination right now. I’m kinda stuck in this very transitional time and it kinda totally blows. I try to be optimistic, to smile and see beauty in everything and sing Kumbaya, but most days I’m just so tired that I put my head down and keep plowing through. Sometimes I’m slightly convinced I’m going crazy, like when I drew myself as a prickly pink sea cucumber or when I was entertained by a cardboard box for a good fifteen minutes.
Is it too late to reclaim my identity as a cat?
I have a dream, and it’s so close that I can almost reach my hand out and grab it. And that’s super exciting. But at the same time, I feel like I’m going to vomit because that dream might not be mine to grab, and I’m going to have to pick up the pieces and find a new one instead. And right now…I know…nothing. That’s terrifying.
Ah, the trials and tribulations of being a teenager! At least I’ll always have cooking and baking to keep me preoccupied.
I’ve been up since 4:30 A.M. so I’ll spare you my mindless prattle and cut to the chase: THESE CUPCAKES. YOU MUST MAKE THEM. I didn’t have one–I gave all of them away to friends and family–but the reports from the taste testers were astoundingly positive. (Apparently one of my English teachers refused to share his cupcake when asked by a colleague because it was so good.) Several people said this was the best cupcake they’ve ever eaten, so you’ve gotta believe it, folks!
So go forth. Make cupcakes. Send good energy and prayers or whatever you do and dance little positivity dances for me. Thank you. Love you. <3
Making cupcakes is fun, but you know what’s even more fun? Burning cupcakes, on purpose, for ART! No, I’m not a pyromaniac, just a girl who likes making cupcakes extra pretty.
Prep Time 1 hr
Cooking Time 20 min
Total Time 1 hr 30 min
Yield 10-12 cupcakes
FOR THE CUPCAKES:
1 large egg, at room temperature
2/3 cup unrefined cane sugar or coconut sugar
1/4 cup of molasses
1 cup unsweetened almond milk + 1 tablespoon of apple cider vinegar
1/2 cup of vegetable oil or melted coconut oil
2 tablespoons of coconut cream (the thick stuff at the top of the can)
1 tablespoon of vanilla extract
1 3/4 cup of whole wheat pastry flour
1 1/2 teaspoons of cinnamon
1 teaspoon of baking soda
1/2 teaspoon of salt
FOR THE CHOCOLATE GANACHE:
4 ounces of dark chocolate, chips or chopped finely
1/4 cup of full-fat coconut milk
FOR THE MARSHMALLOW MERINGUE:
3 egg whites
3/4 cup of unrefined cane sugar
3/8 teaspoon cream of tartar
Pinch of salt
1 teaspoon of vanilla extract
FOR THE CUPCAKES:
Preheat the oven to 350 degrees. Line a muffin tin with parchment liners and set aside.
In a large bowl, whisk together the egg, sugar, molasses, almond milk/vinegar mixture, oil, coconut cream, and vanilla extract until well-combined. Set aside.
In a medium bowl, sift together the flour, cinnamon, baking soda, and salt. Whisk together with a fork and fold into the wet ingredients, 1 cup at a time, until no clumps of flour remain. DO NOT over-mix.
Using an ice cream scoop or two large spoons, scoop the batter into the parchment liners until each is 3/4 the way full. Bake in the oven until a toothpick comes out clean in the center, about 20 minutes.
Let cool in the muffin tin for 15 minutes, then transfer to a cooling rack to come to room temperature.
FOR THE CHOCOLATE GANACHE:
Melt the chocolate in the microwave or a double boiler. Once completely melted, add in the coconut milk, 1 tablespoon at a time, and stir with a spatula. Let cool at room temperature or in the fridge until thickened but still very pliable.
Using an inverted spatula, spread a generous scoop of the ganache all over the top of each cupcake. Let the ganache harden a bit at room temperature while you make the marshmallow.
FOR THE MARSHMALLOW MERINGUE:
In a small saucepan, warm the egg whites and sugar over medium-low heat until the sugar is mostly dissolved, about 3 minutes. Transfer to the bowl of a stand mixer fitted with a whisk attachment, add the cream of tartar and salt, and beat on medium-high until soft peaks form, about 5 minutes. Add the vanilla extract and continue beating until stiff peaks form, about 2-3 minutes longer.
Immediately fill pastry bags fitted with a fat French tip with the prepared marshmallow meringue. Decoratively pipe it all over the top of each prepared cupcake, making whatever patterns you desire.
Using a culinary blowtorch (or a candle, if you’re old-school), gently brulee the top of each cupcake until the meringue begins to brown. Try not to stay in one place too long: once you’ve achieved browning, move onto the next section.
Store in an airtight container for up to 24 hours. Best if consumed right away.
Happy December, everybody! 🙂
Tags: Allergy friendly, baking, cake, chocolate, cupcakes, dairy-free, delicious, dessert, healthy, nut-free, smores